Friendship PUJ

Nakatutuwa yung experience ko last time nung papasok nako ng trabaho, around 5.30am eh nag-aabang ako ng PUJ na may route na Las Pinas Bayan/Kabihasnan. Sakto naman na yung pinara kong PUJ eh sinasakyan din pala ng dalawang nars na kasama ko sa trabaho at pinaguusapan pala nila yung na-iendorse sa shift ko kahapon. Nung magbabayad nako ng fare ko, i did the usual thing..i asked them kung bayad na ba sila. [naranasan nyo na ba yun? pag may nakita kang kakilala sa isang public vehicle eh di mawawala ang tanung na "bayad ka na ba?"] anyway, they answered yes naman. so abot ko na ang bayad ko.

di pa nakakalayo ung PUJ eh may sumakay na naman na pasahero, aba! nakatutuwa..may kakilala din sya sa jeep namin. at siempre chikahan din sila, sabay tanung "bayad ka na ba?" :D

at ito ang mas nakatutuwa s lahat, ng mejo napalayo na kami ay may sumakay na naman na pasahero..at, may kakilala din siya! haha..sasabihin ko pa ba ang sumunod na pangyayari? oo, tama..parehong tanong ang tinanong nya sa kakilala "bayad ka na ba?"

at pare-pareho nga din pala ang naisagot nila sa amin.. "oo"

di ko maiwasan matawa ng bahagya sa pangyayari. ganoon ba kaliit ang laspinas? sa dinami-rami ng pampasaherong jeep na may rutang laspinasbayan/kabihasnan eh tatlong beses na nagkaroon ng mga pasaherong magkakakilala si manong driver. aba buenas siguro siya ng araw na yun dahil sa amin! hehe pampaswerte! :D

no to illness

Often shown on televisions or any form of advertisements “bawal magkasakit”. Aside sa costly na eh sa panahon ngayon, mahirap na tlga magkasakit esp with the pandemic scare. Kaso pano ba maiiwasan yun eh mejo rainy season na..di maiwasan mabasa -o- maulanan kahit na may dala kang umbrella na good for one person at tatlo kayong nagsh-share. [dahil ayaw mong malaki ang bitbit mo’t masisira ang fashion mo eh u prefer to bring that fibrella na kasya kahit sa pouch bag na sinlaki ng palm mo--exagg.]

Sa friends ko palang dami ng tinamaan ng sakit. Yung iba mag 1week na ata or 2weeks sick. Hirap kasi nasasagasaan mga activities/studies/work nila. And baka senyo eh ganon din [hope not]. When I realized na dami na sa friends kong nagkakasakit eh na-paranoid ako. I am prone to get sick. Graveyard ang work ko--lack of sleep pa, I am exposed to different kind of illness, and yes, baka magpasikat na nman ang rhinitis ko, my sister’s got flu pa [common flu lang ha]. So I make sure na di ako magkakasakit, bawal! As in bawal!!!! I can’t leave for work if ever, so minimental ko na lang. “I wont get sick. There’s no way!”. At siempre happy din ako kasi naobserve ko nmn sa haus na they’re taking their vitamins and they get enough rest to avoid getting sick. At sinabihan ko din ang isang tao na “bawal na bawal din sya magkasakit” aba at gusto para maalagaan ko. Wag na, naman. Alagaan na lang kita kahit walang sakit.

Pero..nagdilang anghel ata, he’s not feeling well yesterday. Supposedly may lakad kami after ko manggaling sa cousin ko. i cancelled the date, he went home straight and I visited him na lang. warm TLC was served [endi yung sa Jollibee na Tomato,lettuce and cheese ah. I mean-Tender,Loving,Care haha] ayon, it’s not so bad naman. GOOD!:) I went home making sure he’s fine na. whew~ buti naman. Di pedeng tumagal un.

Anyway, some of my sick friends are starting to get paranoid with different symptoms na naobserve nila. [well, ndi lang nmn Swine Flu and sakit sa mundo, baka kasi nakakalimutan na natin na madami pang sakit] ayon,I hope there’s nothing serious naman. Sana it’s just because of stress lang or due to our weather. I constantly receive Group messages from our friends asking for prayers para sa iba naming friends na may sakit, ayun let’s all pray for those who are sick. Ikaw, make sure u’r getting enough rest and is taking cre of urself so u wont acquire any kind of illness, mahirap na noh. Hindi Masaya ang may sakit. Wag na tiu makiuso. Remember- Health is Wealth. Hehe PAYAMAN! :)

When you found so many reasons to smile

ka-boom! July na..whew~ bilis ng panahon. renewal na ulit kami and night shift ulit ang ni-request ko. nakakapagod, nakakapuyat, nakakadik pero ok lang. Ito kasi ung best shift na pede kong mapili pra magkaron ako ng time sa iba pang bagay. sounds weird kasi graveyard ang duty pero sa part ko mas nagiging productive ako pag ganon.

July. Masaya kong sinalubong tong month na to :) and i know every day will always be a happy day kasi i have so many reasons to smile and thank HIM for giving me every thing that makes my life complete.

i know it's not perfect but it is pretty good enough to wake up everyday, look at that bright sunshine, hear birds chirp, listen to your own music that keeps on playing every time you realize that God made this day for you to enjoy life, appreciate people, learn new things, love ur beloved and feel their love in return, receive unexpected gift/s from anyone or maybe from someone above :) and at the end of the day you can't help it but look at the night sky & the stars, and thank God that he gave u this chance to feel how much he loves you, and when you're that fortunate, everything will repeat all over again tomorrow, can be just the same or maybe better. :)

Call upon Him

I can feel the sadness in his voice. It’s like a voice of a man who has bravely accepted, though hurting, the unbearable truth.

Sunday, it was Father’s day. didn’t greet my dad since we’re 12hrs ahead of them, it’ll be too early, I thought. I wanted to greet him on the exact day. I decided to call him in Canada once I got home from my night duty, however it was unsuccessful. By the time I arrived home, I quickly grabbed the phone and dialed my Tita Onor’s landline number, it rang like forever then a voice prompt asked me to leave a message which I didn’t because I don’t really have something to say in my mind yet. Then I tried sending my father an sms, failed. His phone doesn't receive calls either [tss]. I got to greet him before father’s day ends. My mom insisted me to call tita Mary Ann’s cellphone number which I said no because she’s in the state of going through an agonizing situation and it feels awkward to contact her and look for my dad. And I thought she wouldn’t recognize me since it’s been years since we last saw each other and it was like the first and the last [so far].

Insert: My father’s working abroad and asked for a leave to visit his brother Charlie in Canada, who, at this moment is suffering from Cancer, kept isolated in ICU, bloated, unconscious, -- intubated. Tita Mary Ann, the woman I mentioned earlier, is Tito Charlie’s wife.

Mom txtd Dad, informed him that I tried calling him but no one’s home. Dad replied and told Mom that they’re in the hospital the whole day and will be staying there ‘til 9pm, dad said that he’ll try to contact us once he got the chance to do so. Evening came [morning in Canada] and mom received another sms from my father advising us to stat call because they’re going back to hospital by 8am.[again]

Time checked: 6:30pm-manila/6:30am-ottawa

Without uncertainty, I dropped whatever it was am holding [I forgot what] and whatever it was am doing. I ran downstairs and started phoning dad. Whew~ finally, a human being answered. Tita onor was on the line, I asked her how was she/them and told me dad was there and passed the phone to him. First thing I did, greeted him. “Pa, happy Father’s day” “thank you anak” then this thought stroke fast at the back of my head. How can he be happy while his brother’s in a crucial state between living and dying? Gawd, im telling you, I can deeply feel and attest that my father’s hurting. The way he talked to me, the way he updated me re:tito Charlie’s condition, even the prayers that he asked for his brother [it was my first time getting such a request prayer from my dad. Really.] and I am worried about him and of how much pain he feels. :(

DNR, removing o2 support, sedating and the like, the issues that the family has to discuss, they need to come up with a decision. I don’t wanna ask dad about it, especially on how Tita Mary Ann and their daughters cope up with this one.

If I were to choose…it’ll take me a decade before I can come up with a choice,[though, im a pro-natural-death-being, but if a relative/loved ones are involved, will you just let them die so as not to prolong their sufferings or revive to live despite of the expected instability on their health/life? another thing you have to consider is their existence] and I know Tita Mary Ann’s undergoing a confusing, tormenting and excruciating thoughts in her mind right now and is in need of full support. This is heartbreaking for everyone esp. to her part. If making decisions are just as easy as how you say it... :(

YFCs, friends, bloggers: please pray for Charlie Castro, my Dad’s asking for a miraculous healing for his brother..i know with God everything is possible. We need your prayers.. Thank you.

Living it right :)

"When you learn not to want things so badly, life comes to you."


-Jessica Lange-

Beautiful in My Eyes

can't help it..love ko na si echo! hahaha!
after his performance sa isa sa mga raket namen last march..
gosh.. isa lang masasabi ko..he's hot! XD
his voice is good pala tlga, and kind person din sya..not a snob =)
soooo..i love this song na! :) love Sitti Navarro's version too.
chill :-p

You're my peace of mind in this crazy world.
You're everything I've tried to find, your love is a pearl.
You're my Mona Lisa, you're my rainbow skies,
and my only prayer is that you realize
you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

The world will turn and the seasons will change,
and all the lessons we will learn will be beautiful and strange.
We'll have our fill of tears, our share of sighs.
And my only prayer is that you realize
you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.
And the passing years will show
that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

When there are lines upon my face from a lifetime of smiles,
and when the time comes to embrace for one long last while,
we can laugh about how time really flies.
We won't say goodbye 'cause true love never dies.
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.
And the passing years will show
that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.
The passing years will show that you will always grow
ever more beautiful in my eyes.

***i suggest u listen it HERE, it's better kesa sa video***

Trodat

I love art,
Nursing is an art,
Therefore, I love nursing.

Yakk! Haha
Labo sa Logic.

Daming nurses ngayon, dami ding nagnunursing. Yung iba 1st choice ito, yung iba no choice. Yung iba naman masyadong choicy choosy, kakapili nauwi sa nursing. Bilib ako sa mga taong nakakatapos nito tapos maipapasa ung board exam sa 1st take lang. huwaw, “u’r meant to be a nurse!” haha. Ang tanong eh, gusto mo ba? Gustung-gusto mo ba? Na sa sobrang gusto mo eh kabisado mo na laman ng DOH book at MIMS, at kulang nalang eh palitan mo na ang address mo ng address ng hospital na pinagtatrabahuhan mo? Tipong naaadik ka nang magstraight duty, o mas malupet eh mag 24-hr duty?

Ako. Hindi ito ang first choice ko. Ni hindi ko nga nakitang kukunin ko tong course na to. Pero ng sinabi ng erpats ko na dun pa din ako mag-aaral sa university na pinagaralan ko nung hayskul eh nabura lahat ng pangarap kong courses para sa mga pinangarap kong universities. Pero ayos lang, natuwa na din ako kasi una sa lahat tamad ako bumyahe! At mas gugustuhin ko pang itulog sa kama ang byahe ko kesa itulog ito katabi ang mga estranghero sa public vehicle.

Hindi ko naman binasta-basta ang nursing. Sa totoo lang hindi biro ang magaral ng kursong ito. Buhay at systema sa loob ng katawan ang pinapakialamanan dito. Mas naapreciate ko pa ito lalo ng maranasan ko ng makapasok sa hospital. Hands-on, wala ka ng kasamang clinical instructor, wala ng magtuturo, wala ng magsasabi ng gagawin mo. Ang nakasalalay eh buhay ng pasyente mo at buhay mo.. dahil pagnagkamali ka..hindi lang pasyente mo ang magdurusa, yari din ang lisensya mo. hehe

TRODAT!

Usung-uso yan sa mga staff nurses. Yun bang pantatak na may pangalan mo, title mo, at license number mo. Para easy ka nalang after charting. Pagtapos mo isulat na parang nobela ang assessments, interventions at outcome ng pinagagagawa mo eh kukunin mo nalang ang Trodat mo, sabay tatak! Sabay pirma! Ayos! Propesyonal na propesyonal ang arrive! Oh yea! anung panama ng quill pen ni Doktor J.Rizal diyan? Malaki! kaya di nako magmamalaki. :|

Anyway, minsan na akong tinanong ng kasamahan ko kung kelan ako magpapagawa ng sarili kong Trodat, yun eh nung mga panahong volunteer nars pa lang ako. “Hanggat hindi moko nakikitaan ng ganyan, ibig sabihin sa palagay ko eh hindi pa din ako para sa field na to.” Ilang buwan na din nakaraan yon. At nito lang tinanung ako ng isang kaibigang nursing student ng punung-puno ng galak kung may Trodat nako dahil isa nakong certified Staff nars na RN. Ganun pa din ang sinagot ko, pero this time medyo nag-hang sa utak ko ng ilang Segundo ung tanong. ampf. napaisip na ako dun ah. Hindi ba’t magandang senyales yun? Baka sa susunod na may magtanong sakin eh maglabas nako ng pouch bag at hagilapin ang trodat ko na kulay green. Heehee :D minsan kasi, ngiti lang ng pasyente at bantay nila eh nakapagpapalubag loob na kahit na sa govt hospital ka lang naglilinkod. naks. tanggal pagod lalo na pagsumayd-comment pa yang mga yan.whew! at siempre ang libreng pagkain na binibigay nila wahahaha!

Les Misérables

sometimes we tend to do stupid things coz of the feeling of being lost, and when u realized that u shud hev think first before u've acted..it was too late.

things happened either in a way that u'd love it or not.
u can never manipulate a situation to fall under ur own expectations.
the least thing that u can do is to accept it.
ur own idea of how a story shud flow will never cover up what's being played in reality.
we're talking about now and what's real.
the truth and acceptance of it.
not getting what u desired shud never be a reason for u to do things that u shudnt.
that will only make things worse.. and later u'l discover that u've made urself more miserable.

H1N1

Nung nakaraang araw, Biyernes, may pasok ako. 2pm pa ang shift ko pero 8am pa lang gumising na ako para makapunta sa seminar sa hospital namin. “Nephrology” ang topic, about kidneys yun, para sa hindi nakakaalam. Sinundo ako ng co-staff ko, medyo tamad na tamad talaga ako ng araw na yun dahil kinulang din ako sa tulog pero sige “go!”, isa pa miss ko na ang lecture-lecture na ganyan eh. 10am umpisa ng seminar at dumating naman kami ng sakto sa oras. Pagpasok namin ng conference room…Aba, walang tao. Inumpisahan na naming lagyan ng tao yung kwarto at kami nga iyon. (Oo, tao po ako.)

Dahil hindi ako nkapagrecall about nephro at namiss ko ang lecture eh sinimulan ko ng magbukas ng notes at magscan. Sa kasarapan ng aking pagbabasa-basa eh biglang may pumasok at nagsabing dalawa ang topic namin. 1.30pm pa daw ang Nephro at Swine Flu Virus ang 1^st topic. Walang may alam, lahat kami eh Nephro lang ang sadya. Anak ng tokwa talaga, 2pm ang duty ko at 1.30pm ang Nephro, malamang sa oo hindi ko na maatetendan ang Nephro seminar. Tsss. Ok payn. Ok na din ako dun sa 1st topic, hindi din naman ako updated sa H1N1 or Mexico Swine Flu Virus na yan! (oh teka, nakuha ko lang yang terms sa seminar, wala talaga akong alam) Narinig ko nga lang yang virus na yan sa kasama kong nurse isang araw bago ang seminar.

Anyway ang topic.

Swine Flu Virus. Sabi nila mas malala kesa sa SARS. Well, parang gusto ko na din maniwala, dahil tinaas ng WHO sa Phase 5 ang Pandemic Alert level ng naturang worldwide viral disease na to. Mode of Transmission nito eh person-to-person through coughing or sneezing basta droplet. Pede din ito maipasa kung makahawak ng infected na bagay yung kamay mo at naihawak mo naman sa bibig, mata or ilong mo. Sa Mexico nagmula ang Flu Virus na ito at habang dinidiscuss samin ito eh may 26 confirmed cases na sa kanila, iba pa ang cases outside Mexico like sa US meron silang 91 laboratory confirmed human case. Pero latest update since April 30. Isang araw lamang matapos ang seminar namin eh tumaas sa 97 confirmed human cases sa Mexico at 109 naman sa US.

Nakamamatay ba ang sakit na ito? Oo, meron nang nareport na namatay dahil dito. 7 sa Mexico at 1 sa US. Wag kang mag-alala dahil wala pang narereport na case sa Pinas, pero mabuti pa din ang maging maingat dahil madaming naglalabas-masok na tourista sa ating bansa, malay natin isa don eh dumaan na sa Mexico at may baong pasalubong na Swine Flu…yaiks!

Makakaiwas naman tayo dito kung lulutuin ng mabuti ang mga baboy na kakainin lalo na ung imported mula sa ibang bansa. Tamang paghuhugas ng kamay, pagtakip ng bibig at ilong kung uubo or babahing. Pagkakaron ng malusog na pangangatawan at higit sa lahat eh maging aware sa sakit na ito lalo na sa mga symptoms nito. Halos may hawig ito sa symptoms ng Common Colds, kung ikaw ay nagkakalagnat, may sipon-o-sorethroat, panghihina ng katawan sa loob ng ilang araw eh marapat ng maghanap ng medical attention for assurance.

Deal

DEAL: "3sticks a day"

'was asking him to limit his smoke, 3sticks a day. He usually smokes more or less 10sticks..whew dat cud lead to something ain't good for him. abruptly ceasing his bad habit sure is painful so im good with just setting up some limitations.

i can see he's having a hard time dealing with it, especially after our meal haha! he's dying to lit a cigar! i always tell him to use his 3sticks wisely for 24hrs, and i can say he's trying hard. i asked him once if he feels bad 'cause i set limit, he told me no and was happy enough 'cause im asking him to do that and someone's scolding him. well i sorta like "uhmm okaayy..." and jokingly threw him a line: "well the nxtym u smoked more than 3sticks i'l not just scold u, i'l also ask u to kneel on monggos." hahaha. and he said "il do dat for u!" darn him...he knows how to make me smile with simple things.

oh well, ironically speaking, i really want him to cease from smoking but, everytime i see him holds a stick and puffs it..it makes me like him more. he simply is irresistible in his own admirable way. and shhhh...he doesnt know about it! :)